I feel like oh whatever right now. Yesterday was bullshit. Today is as well. But I met Mira which made me happy, enough. But I end up feeling like shit again when I reached home. I date myself yesterday. My classmates rock. School suck.


I ate this.



And I end up wasting my cash by not finishing everything =))


hellooooo to everybody lah okay. hehs.

Erm, first up. School. Omg I slept like I dunno what in the bus on the way to school. Really tired cuz was working 5-10 the night before. Anyhoooo, today everything ended at 10, I think. Mr Famous Amos wasn't free. Hahs. Went home together with Sue & Nas. Before that, we hang out at the canteen for about an hour plus plusss haha. Laugh about stupid stuff. Maybe I was in a "slenge" mode just now. "Slenge" means, uhhh, hahahaha slow uh I think. Hahaha. -_-

Second, I swear I won't be bad again. My darlins should know why =) Ate 2 banana fritters with dearest Daddy as a celebration. Hahaha. Love my daddy lahs.

Third, I just feel that some guys are really just plain idiotic lahs. Idiotic jerks. Assholes. Haha. Thanks for making me feel like a worthless piece of paper yeah. I LOVE IT OKAY.

Last, I hate it when people keep knocking on my house door like I owe them something. Especially the guy next door.
"BANG! BANG! HALO! HALO HALO"
stupid man. say halo to your fcuking self lah.

Replies to tags!
acah: hahahaha strong mentally and physically. *rolls around* muahhsss!
leng: on ahhh! hahahaha lolx. Looking at Daniel's face makes me wanna laugh sia. How? hahahaa.
sue: No worries babe. YOU BE STRONG OKAY! Kalau tak, aku semack that pantat kau. lol.
AKUEMOBODOH: Stop it lah emo emo emo emo hahahaha. TAG! TAG! WOO~ hahaa

Ah. I dunno why but I really like this smiley -> =D Hahahaha lame. Well, school was okay lah just now. Exams are up in two weeks bebehs. I'm kinda struggling okay. Hope I'll do fine and won't get electrocuted for some reason hmmmmmm...

I knew I should've come to school yesterday. I felt like shit in class just now hahaha some of my classmates know. I have to find a thumb drive somewhere to store all my work in. If everything gets lost, I'll be really fcuking pissed off sia. Pfft.

Eh I can't remember what time I'm supposed to come to school tomorrow. Alah later then I check hahaha. Its 9 plus and I wonder if I can sleep tonight hey. Feeling so hyperactive lah. Shits.

Uhh what else ahh.. Lemme think..

Oh yeah I feel like graduating.

Okay world.

Kinnie's single again =].

I really believe in karma. It does go around you know. I love it when it hits somebody back. Let the person taste their own medicine and I can try out my evil laugh.

Oh wells.

Thanks to the people who gave me support. Hearts to ya'll.

Ohhg man. Still can't forget the memories I had in 2005/6. Chillin out with da peeps and all. The times when I and my cliques went out to town almost every weekend. The stupid thangs that we would do everyday. I'll do anythang to get that back.. Life back then was heaven but I never cherished it well. That was my 'fatal' mistake. You may be wonderin why I'm typing out all these right? Well, was browsin thru the old comments/testimonials from Friendster and I was like, gawd I feel stupid & what have I done that kinda thang.

I miss class sec 3 and 4F. Sleepin durin lessons. Throwin papers at others. Disruptin teachers when they're teachin. Winning the title of the most received-complaints-about class in TWSS.
Crazy classmates calling me names like sakendeq, hercules, worm hahaha. Stupid jokes. The time I got sabo-ed real baddd, I ate tissue paper by mistake of a piece of roti prata hahaha.

LOVE. uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. It was confusing. I break people's hearts and they broke mine. Well, in fact I really broke someone's heart before. He's the most caring person in da world I guess. So flower2. Gave ourselves nicknames. Haha. Nah its over anyway. Although I still wonder why...

Wokay. It's 2007 now and thangs definitely changed, alot. Friends seperate to their own busy lives. Different school and a different life. Well, I met quite a number of new people but I still miss the old times okay haha. 2007 has nothing special in store for me lehh. Why uh? =/

I'll be more than happy la to meet them again.

Arghh I hate jerks! Idiotic jerksssss! Just thinking about that could give me a headache.

Okay I still feel stupid.

Went shopping with my brother today. We surely had lotsa fun. Haha. Bought a Little Miss Chatterbox tee from Queen's Couture and the Esprit bag I wanted.





Have to go to school tomorrow... I HATE SCHOOL. Such a chore. I feel like doing nothing at all. How I wish I could repeat back time... 2-3 years back... That was the time I was really free and quite loving it. Time goes by and its already 2007 -_-.

And I found out about somethting which really pissed me off. Argh damn fcuking liar! wooooo my heart is on fire. HAAAAAAAAAhaha nonsense.

Guys are jerks aren't they girls? hahahahahahaahhh sorry eh if terase =D

Somebody ask me out please? I'm really bored hahs.

Btw, would like to wish my dearest Shafiqah a happy 18th birthday, sweetface Liana a happy 19th birthday and shayangku sHaHiDaaaaaaaaaaaa a happy 17th eh? birthday! May all wishes come true yea! XOXO.

I really miss my girlfriends..
2nd June okay?
Please jgn tak jadi!

muax.

Days past and I'm feeling nothing still. Haha. What's wrong with me? Hahahaha. School's like I dunno what. Work was fine. But today there's lotsa crappy customers. I have to face their crappy faces like wtf. Haaaa. Oh wells. Okay I'm starting to feel lazy to type.

Replies!
acah : ahahaha =D i saw you! lol.
linda: hey sweets. dun worry lah. I dun feel anything now.
sabrina: aww thanx sweetface. But I don't think theres no point talking to him =/.
syzwyshuk: okay relinked dude! =D
faz: Heyy fazzie =D
Zoolaa: bloghop jugak eh kau. ahahaha. bored sia.

Maybe we were just not meant to be... We keep on having fights, arguments and such these days... Ever since I stepped into ITE... He kept saying that ITE changed everything... I know myself... I won't fall into traps that easily this time... I'm only there to study...But suddenly I lost my interest in school... My friends in school were great... I'll just keep prayin that I'll hang on for 2 years there...

The school is not the point anyway... It has absolutely nothin to do with my relationship with him... I just don't know why he suddenly changed... Yes, I was reluctant to step into ITE before.. But I failed my o levels and my parents encouraged me to keep schooling... What am I to do?... I can't retake cuz I'll definitely fail... Nobody knows me more than I do...
He keeps accusing me of chatting with someone else one day in school... I really didn't realise he was online... I swear... I was online to send html stuff to my friend and back cuz I was lazy to type everything... My phone was in silent mode as well... Suddenly I feel the urge to text and call him... He won't answer my calls... It really took a while for him to reply and he said I completely ignored him online... Said my friendster and myspace were full of stupid comments from jerks... I swear I didn't realise he was online... I kept apologizing and stuff for the whole day.... He indirectly said that "I" change his msn password... He still won't believe what I said and kept on accusing me of such things I won't do.... Don't you think that all this were caused by some misunderstanding?....And can be settled?...

Untill I couldn't take it anymore....

Maybe breaking up is the best option... Yes, 2 years+ was such a waste to let go....I know..
But can you take it when your own loved one won't believe anything you said?....
How would you feel if your own loved one accuse you of such things you won't do?....
How would you feel to be something for him to throw his anger at?....

We do have wonderful memories... Both happy and sad.. He makes me feel happy and loved... He lightens up my day... Sends me sweet messages... We were in love...

But all that didn't happen since god knows when?...

Am I too demanding?... My tears are worth nothing now... My heart began to ache so much....

Why can't you put your pride and ego aside and let me have some space in your heart?....

I feel so miserable...
My friends and my family is all I got left...
But...
My parents are not always at home cuz they are busy working....
My lil brother always spends his time at my gran's crib...
My friends can't always be there for me cuz they too also have problems of their own...

Guess I'm on my own now...
Guys sure love putting his pride first above anything else....

Here's my new layout! =] I just love this song.. It may be quite some time but I just love it lah. Hehe. Fights with the bf again since the last 2 days... I'm tired and hurt as well... I just hope things turned out better as time goes by...

ANYWAY...
I was browsin thru my archive and I found a really stupid entry I post up on my birthday 2 years ago.. I feel like an idiot after reading what rubbish I wrote sia.. lol...

here it goes..

Jengjengjeng~! hehehe.. officially 15! make i/c! hahaha! so much fun todae! e physics paper ended @ 915.. we enjoy lah after that.. Unluckily.. my deng2 frens.. were playing wit my fone.. didnt realise that Mrs.Phua was looking at them.. i was at the staircase waiting fer them to hurry up..they were still in front of e classrm.. And then, she approached the dengdengs.. "Give me your phone..Now".. Alamak.. start cursing sak..in tots i said,"Hp aru belik sak! gerek arh niarie!"..Then,mentang2 dah 15 todae.. da besar.. daring2 la.. the dengdengs were scared.. i was terrified lah!(haiyo!my fone oke!!)..i quietly sneaked behind mira.. grabbed my phone.. and ran awae.. run like hell ..at the traffic lite above the slope then i stop..(2.4 pass wuhuu.. 4.8 sini mari..wehee!).. i can hear Mrs.Phua screaming.."Hey girl! Come back! Come back! whats her name!? her name?!"..the dengdengs were of cuz tahan-ed lah.. dun stupid2 tell e idiot my name suar..Met atiqah on e wae (lari klua skola)..she wondered,"Oi sakendeq..asl ko sorang?dorang mane?"..i..like org gile..replied,"Aku lari dari cekgu larh sak!Nampak hp tros nk tarek!Cabot arh!aru belik sial..".. ewah2..exciting gitu ehh..heheh.. Atiqah giggled.. niwae..i was told that Mrs.Phua pulled Mira and the dengs to the General Office..for wat? c OM...how stupid can this tuek teacher can be... GO TELL OM FOR WAT SIAL!TAULAH TKLE BAWAK..DABES SKOLA PER!.. and *toot* goes on... Meanwhile, near the traffic lite, my hands are numb..cannot feel anitink...scared like *toot*.."Tkpelah..mcm si Zainal nak carik kau sak..naseb baek ko tk skola bsok..hrp2 dier tk carik ah.."Iqah said.."Yela aku tau..lau dier knal aku camane?Lau deng2 kt dlm terblang name aku camane?Dahla prefect sak.. Hrp2 ah tkde pape..",i said..(mls btui ako nk jadik prefect..membazira current ako) ..Wait..wait..wait.. like dunnoe wat.. Udin appeared.. "Eh,Sakina,kwn2 kau carik kau.." "Dorg kt ner?Jgn kt dlm skola suar.." "Tklah..dorg kt dpan gate tu..ko pegi arh..bye"..(udin blah,ako pkt dorg..).."OI! Korg ade blang name ako pat cekgu tak?!"i asked.."Ah!"Fida said.... Suddenly..Mira cut e conversation halfwae.."oh tkdelah! itu..itu..yg itu.."(eksen "itu" kerr.."itu" aperr?heh) After that..changed tha topic.. dey can never escape from me la.. i will owaes remain suspicious.. they pretend but dey dunno how to lie..(Paham?Tk?oh tu ko nye pasal..=D)..I walked off.. very very very NOT in the mood..with Atiqah along..hepi dgr discman....Went to Lot 1's Mac.. dey talk..talk..talk..talk..pujuk..pujuk..sedih..sedih..tak selese..tk selese..(allahuakhbar~) With the malas to layan, blanjer-ed dem.."Kau nk mkn ape?Meh aku belikan.." "Taknak2..aku blanje..korg mkn.." den blablabla..in e end..change of my mood..hepi..sedikiiitt saje..tap tk mkn lah..aku minum air tadi pagi..tros kenyang..(bole gitu eh..) ..lenggang lenggung.. SABO-ed! with Tepong+Flour(same la..)+Nestum(baby nye mkn eh?)+dead frogs(kiwak..giler sak!).. Hit by flour by Fida ferst..she fell..i oso fell..got up.. ran around 5 blocks and hide..too bad theyre abit selow..wekekekkek..hid on level 2 of a block..saw them walkin around wif flour like paikias!! wahahah! tkleh angkat ako..=p.. i went down.. saw them.. said "yuhuuu!"..then i ran.. tenkiu god i can run..whee!.. ran..untill i reached in front of the foodcourt.. near the field..(dkat2 Lot 1 lah) .. ppl stare at me.. why is dis gurl in blue suddenly turns white..the MOST BONUS QUESTION OF E CENTURY..in e end.. hit again by Fida.. wit watthe*toot* is Nestum n frogs.. i scream like *toot*..ran after them.. hit them back..hahahassss! After all the catastrophe(ewah2..english power arh dek..) ..went to toilet..take bus..go home.. all the ppl..staring at me..i no heran..jus wanna go home.. and mandi..(fresh cam kuda man!!) heheh.. end of setory.. Panjang beno cite ako ni haa! Menarek sungguh iyo! hahahahahaiii~!

WHADDUFUCK?
kental right?
that was me a few years back.
full of fucking nonsense..

I STILL LOVE MY BOYFRIEND <33333!!!
LET'S MEET UP SOON OKAY BABY!!!
MWAHHHHS!
XOXO